Blow the Man Down

Piano Lessons

My 4th lesson is tomorrow. I’m a little nerved up because I wasn’t able to practice as much this week. My teacher is awesome though, and I heard from her sister (my aunt) and from her mom that she loves me “to pieces” and “wishes all her students were this dedicated.” So yay. I like her, too.

The song running through my head right now is Blow the Man Down. I don’t understand what it means, but perhaps it’s a Pirate diddy? Anyhow, I never learned that song when I was a child, so I had to have Rob sing it to me over and over so I could figure out the timing. Lavender’s Blue is really hard for me too. Blehhhhh. I hate it when I can’t catch on right away… but I need to keep practicing.

Haircut

Another reason teen girls are bad: Mindy told me 14 times Monday and yesterday that my haircut is “just as nasty as Grandma Bebe’s.” The girl told me I looked like Rob’s mom. That’s a huge nono. She’s not ugly… just… plain. And doesn’t do her hair to the best of her ability. She’s VERY old skool.

But I do love Mindy and I love her haircut. I also love that she let me highlight her hair today, and that she has been in a good mood for two days. She’s also keeping on top of the laundry. And doing her chores without being asked.

It’s heartening to finally have caught her in a lie and I actually had the guts to confront her about it, and then she stopped lying about that particular situation. I told her to stop lying to me about everything, that my standards are hight and I expect her not to lie about anything, ever.

Fertility Doctor

I talked with Dr. Michael’s office today about redoing the test that was botched last week. Apparently, Dr. S (who hurt me so badly) is the only person in the area who performs that particular test, besides my former doctor (from 6 years ago) who I dislike greatly. I will call after my piano lesson tomorrow to see what’s up with that.

In the mean time, Rob and I had a heart-to-heart talk today about him being gone so much, working away from home. I guess I really do view it as a test, that if he can’t clear a little time to go to appointments with me, that I don’t even want to pursue having a childe, because how do I have any guarantee he will spend time with me and our baby once s/he’s born?

Job Related Stress

We decided that we’re both rather high-strung of late, with the probability Rob will lose his job to Malaysians in less than 60 days. The Lord keeps telling us both to take the leap of faith. But it’s so scary.

I pray mightily that when the time comes for Rob and me to make that leap, that we can stop holding onto the things of this world, the house, the cars, the toys… and hold onto God and each other, and Mindy, and make that leap with every ounce of energy we ever thought of having.

Rob did work from home today, but it’s weird having him here just once a week. It’s also weird having him act very stressed and so snotty to me because the phone is apparently attached to the side of his head. The one thing I just can’t deal with is a snotty tone from my husband. Blehhhh. But we mostly made up tonight… so it’s all good now.

Bob Evans

I wanted to go to Moe’s Southwest Grill for dinner tonight, but Mindy hates Mexican food (my favorite). I just can’t go somewhere she doesn’t like when she’s with us, so we went to Bob Evans. I just love that place. Mindy had pancakes with banana filling and caramel over the top. I had a few bites of it for dessert. Yum-O.

Cassie

BTW, my dad’s birthday party was on Sunday. I got to see my brother’s little girl, Cassie who will be 8 at the end of this month. She’s so funny and beautiful and she talks so fast. She told me a story about how she saw some bees mating and how funny they looked. She’s truly been raised in a horse barn, so it’s no big deal to her, mating. But it cracks me up that she laughed so much about it.

Sister Dear

Have you ever told something to someone, and you forgot to tell that person not to tell someone else? Well, if you have to tell them not to tell, then you shouldn’t have told in the first place, right?

Ugh.

I went off on a rant to my sister today, about my brother. See, James’ wife Darla doesn’t like our family and James was acting weird at my dad’s birthday dinner on Sunday. So I flipped out to my sister this morning on the phone and…..

she told my parents how distressed I was…..

so my parents called me at 9:30 tonight (past their bed time for getting up at 4 AM)…

and my parents apologized for their reaction on Sunday, because they said they didn’t want to hurt my feelings…

so I told them not to worry about it, that it was all fine, and they wanted to know more…

but I wouldn’t divulge because it was my dad’s party and THE VERY LAST THING I ever wanted to do was make my dad feel like his party wasn’t perfect. It was perfect because it was HIS party.

So that’s all for tonight. God is still on his throne and my baby’s on his way. It just may take many more months to square it away than I originally thought.

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