I am a great-aunt today. My mom-in-law, Bebe came into Work to tell me. I am sure she did not know how those words would rip through my heart like fire. Bebe, for all her faults, is a good woman, whom I love dearly for being the mother of my sweet Rob. But she really doesn’t think [...]
Archive for the ‘Baby Making’ Category
31 Jan
Standing Alone
Musings
In her towel, she stands shivering, looking out the window onto the frozen, snowy landscape. “Six more weeks,” she whispers to herself, “and this will be my home no more.”
In the shower she broke down just now, asking God how can 36 years have gone by so quickly, praying for a change, for something to [...]
28 Dec
Dearest Rob, my Darling
Rob,
What hasn’t happened this year that we have weathered together, with God?
But you know, to weather something and come through on the other side… that takes leadership and drive, wisdom and patience. God has blessed you with those things, and I thank you for sharing them with me, and for being a family together.
Honey, I [...]
3 Dec
Some Things Just Hurt
There are things in life which hurt so much there are just no longer words to describe them. Currently at the top of my list is Walter, age 90ish, from our church in Middleton.
I walked to the basement to get Rob… he was talking with Walter about who knows what. Guy stuff, I though. The [...]
31 May
How Could I be?
It was a hard week for me, with the birth of some close friends’ baby yesterday. But with God’s tender mercies, I am making it through.
26 Feb
Watched Pot Never Boils
I’m reading Emma again. I do love reading Jane Austen, but then it makes me talk like her… and at this moment I’m Miss Bates- oh have you heard that the watched pot never boils? Oh, said I, that is what my grandmama always used to say, and right she was, for it seems to [...]
21 Feb
My Sister’s Boyfriend
Dotty’s boyfriend LaMar is a lawyer. I just finished talking to my twin sister about what her darling knew with regard to family law. Dotty said he is only licensed to practice in the state of New York, but that he can help Rob and me with questions we have regarding a possible adoption.
Remember my [...]
18 Feb
Not Patient
I’m not typically known as patient. I know, you don’t believe me, do you? It’s true, though.
You are all such a blessing to me with your sweet and encouraging comments. It helps the wait be not so brutal.
Do I want to hear more news about my news? OF COURSE. And is the person who could [...]
17 Feb
On the Brink
Reading something 100 times does not change its meaning. Thank God.
What do you do when you have prayed at great length for something, only to find that your prayers are on the brink of being answered? Do you keep your “nose to the grindstone” and keep on going and working toward your goal? Do you [...]
22 Jan
Stupid Tears
I’m pouting a little because I got roped in… reading sad, encouraging, happy, scary birthing stories again.
Last week I watched hour after hour of Bringing Home Baby on TLC. “Jayleigh,” I told myself, “This won’t be you. If/when you have a family, it just won’t be all smiles coming from a hospital with you as [...]
24 Oct
Waiting on a Miracle
Relinquishing Control
I wonder what it is within me that makes me want to be in control of each and every little aspect of my life and the world around me. Don’t get me wrong; I’m not a control freak. I just want to be the boss of it all sometimes.
In a nutshell, I want to [...]
16 Oct
What Would I Give
What would I give to be where she is, now 51 days in the hospital? She’s bored out of her mind, and worried, and unable to see friends and family very much.
In the last 4 weeks, her tummy has gotten impressively bigger. Her hair has gotten longer. They say the baby is over 3 pounds, and [...]
14 Oct
Will Not Ruin Me
Infertility Struggles Will Not Ruin Me
Because I won’t let them! My head is above water, but not by much. It’s not even the Holidays and I am nearing the end of my rope. I have no patience. I have outgrown all of my clothes except a few exceptionally huge pieces, which are also stretchy.
When I [...]
