This is a Call Out

 
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Place: Living Room in the Big City
Mood: Angrier at Office Word than anything, but searching and a little blue
 
Dear Father God,
Why is everything so hard sometimes?  Why does it seem like “everyone else” has an easier time in life than I do? My heart is crying out. Come [...]

Not Sure Now

Logan is still “with us” in the sense that he’s listed in our home as far as the state knows. But he’s staying with his  former/next family as I type this, and he’s been there since last week.
I woke up very sad this morning and I still can’t quite figure out why. I think it’s [...]

I Don’t Know What

I have been away for a long time, from my blog, from my thoughts. I am afraid that I have purposefully distanced myself from knowing my own heart, for fear that I would run back to things and a life much more familiar.
I went to the doctor this morning, having had much abdominal pain. Before [...]

Alive Alive Alive Forever More!

Things have been going OK here in the city. The drama from a few weeks ago has cleared up, to be replaced by drama from the church secretary who feels that she can not only boss my husband around, but take him down a peg or two in the Theology Department.
Rob is amazing and kindhearted [...]

Prodigal Foster Son

He’s home, he’s in bed, he has a black eye, and isn’t talking much. The black eye is the only thing that’s new.

Invisible Indeed

So we’ve taken to calling our nearly 18 year old foster son, Invisi-Logan, since he makes himself scarce whenever we have people over. Or even PERSON. He rarely talks to us, let alone the others in our lives. Except my dad for some strange reason. Invisi-Logan introduced himself and shook my dad’s hand and seemed [...]

Mindy’s Open House

The party went well. Rob and I are exhausted. L spent the weekend with his former foster family. I also, for some reason, painted the bathroom over the weekend. Am I a nut, or what?

Homing Pigeons

THE LITTLE KIDS
 had a greatexperience this morning, stemming directly from my lateness and unpreparedness. I know, it sounds a bit weird. I set my timer so that I would get up from the computer and playing on Facebook, (btw bloggers pls don’t mention MY blog on FB. Real life peeps know nothing abt my blog… thx) [...]

New Home in My Old Hometown

So I was checking out Stormy’s (former foster daughter’s) MySpace today and it says she is moving back to the town that Rob and I just moved from a few months ago. It’s also the town WHERE I WORK.
I have a couple of problems with this, manily that Stormy is a shoplifter and I don’t [...]

Great Auntie Jay

I am a great-aunt today. My mom-in-law, Bebe came into Work to tell me. I am sure she did not know how those words would rip through my heart like fire. Bebe, for all her faults, is a good woman, whom I love dearly for being the mother of my sweet Rob. But she really doesn’t think [...]

What a Difference a Day Makes

… or two or three days, even.
I am sitting here now somewhat in awe of the crabbiness and nastiness I showed here on my blog last week. So in honor of God leading me by the hand out of that pit once more, I shall speak of my blessings today!

I don’t remember if I mentioned [...]

So Angry !!!!!!!!!!!!

Something happened one week ago for which I had been waiting 17 years.
Angelina found my sister Dotty on Facebook. Dotty and I rejoiced over it. Angelina and I talked until 12:30 am that day, and she talked with my sis until 2 am.
My heart was bursting out of my chest. Such joy!
My older brother James [...]

No More Sackcloth

My time of mourning is done. I miss Stormy, but I am getting back to life.
Some random points of interest:

I found the most amazing curtains/linens store on Saturday. It’s designer products at LESS THAN Wal-Mart prices. YEAHHH! Oh, and I witnessed a bit to one of the workers.
Some clothes I ordered for Stormy came in [...]

Protected: The Email from Stormy

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