Archive for the ‘God’ Category

Year of Jubilee

I am thinking of and listening to this song while I am writing this post. My God and my saviour are THE ONLY way I am getting through these hectic days.
BEHOLD HE COMES. RIDING ON THE CLOUDS. SHINING LIKE THE SUN. AT THE TRUMPET CALL. LIFT YOUR VOICE. IT’S THE YEAR [...]

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The Things I Would Tell You – Part 1

Hello You. How are you? You’ve been on my mind so much lately. It hasn’t been so long since seeing each other, but we couldn’t talk then. We really don’t talk about “real” things anymore, though, do we? It’s not so much that I long for the closeness we once had, because that is gone, [...]

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This is a Call Out

 
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Place: Living Room in the Big City
Mood: Angrier at Office Word than anything, but searching and a little blue
 
Dear Father God,
Why is everything so hard sometimes?  Why does it seem like “everyone else” has an easier time in life than I do? My heart is crying out. Come [...]

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God is So Big – I am so small

I had an epiphany this week, and I was amazed when I stopped to think about it.
So often when I pray about my infertility, I ask God for every little thing that I want. A healthy baby, healthy me, healthy Rob, living together in God’s love and harmony, and us raising our healthy, smart, perfect baby [...]

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One Year Later…

It was one year ago last Saturday that Rob and I first laid eyes on our church here in the Big City. I can hardly believe that one year ago I was writing in my journal from my picnic table in my front yard, underneath a tree, with no houses in sight. I don’t know if [...]

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Romans 13:14

I have made it no secret here on my blog that I haven’t been a REAL Christian for all that long, not yet 5  years. In that time, I have opened my eyes to the horrible life I lead before, and have done a complete turn-around. Praise God. PRAISE GOD!
I used to be so sad, [...]

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I Don’t Know What

I have been away for a long time, from my blog, from my thoughts. I am afraid that I have purposefully distanced myself from knowing my own heart, for fear that I would run back to things and a life much more familiar.
I went to the doctor this morning, having had much abdominal pain. Before [...]

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Wondrous Love

Something happened at work the other day which I didn’t understand until much later. Now I can hardly stop smiling over it all.
Dan comes into my work all the time. He’s nearly 70, gruff, but usually in a good mood and razzes us girls at the front counter. Dan is a tall guy and fairly [...]

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Dealing with Anger

I watched the movie Juno last night. I probably shouldn’t have.
See, the premise is about a pregnant teen who decides to give up her baby to adoptive parents. The adoptive parents have a marriage in shambles. The prospective dad leaves, the mom adopts the baby and all is well–except for the part which showed how [...]

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VACATION!!!!! YEAH!

Just got home last night. I wrote this yesterday.
 
The best thing I can think of about this vacation is actually more than one thing.
The food. Garrett has cooked for us nonstop since we arrived. He’s not gourmet, but man is he ever close. WOW! Melon and chocolate the first night. Eggs, ham, cheese and potato [...]

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Homing Pigeons

THE LITTLE KIDS
 had a greatexperience this morning, stemming directly from my lateness and unpreparedness. I know, it sounds a bit weird. I set my timer so that I would get up from the computer and playing on Facebook, (btw bloggers pls don’t mention MY blog on FB. Real life peeps know nothing abt my blog… thx) [...]

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Blown Completely Away

Rob wrote this to me while he was away this weekend. I was blown away and I want to be a better wife because of the same reasons.
Saturday, May 16, 2009 3:20 PM
Dearest Jay,
I am reminded, as I have been apart from you for some 77 hours, that I can be fine when I am [...]

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My Best Pal Joan

For the past 4 days, my best work-friend Joan has not been feeling well. Joan and I are such a pair.We finish each other’s sentences, we make inside jokes constantly, and we generally work very hard and also goof off a bunch.
Today when I got to work, Joan was lamenting her medical bills and said [...]

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It Serves me right…

I was gone for so long, and it serves me right that nobody’s commented on the last post. Even though it’s the best song in FOREVER.
So I was just chatting with my young blog-friend and I told her I was hiding out from blogging right now because I am in a holding pattern in my [...]

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