My girls are moving to Ohio. They have been saying it for months and months, but I guess I didn’t really believe it would really happen, since the date has come and gone a few times and they are still here.
I don’t even know what to say. I am sad. I worry for them. I [...]
Archive for the ‘Hard Lessons’ Category
4 Nov
My Little Kids
30 Oct
What You Don’t Know
Joie,
You never listen to me. When you do listen, it’s carefully and so you can find a chink in my “logic” and tell me in 20 ways why I am more wrong than any person who has ever lived.
You calmly told me just now how I made you feel so badly. Well YOU took it [...]
20 Sep
This is a Call Out
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Place: Living Room in the Big City
Mood: Angrier at Office Word than anything, but searching and a little blue
Dear Father God,
Why is everything so hard sometimes? Why does it seem like “everyone else” has an easier time in life than I do? My heart is crying out. Come [...]
6 Sep
God is So Big – I am so small
I had an epiphany this week, and I was amazed when I stopped to think about it.
So often when I pray about my infertility, I ask God for every little thing that I want. A healthy baby, healthy me, healthy Rob, living together in God’s love and harmony, and us raising our healthy, smart, perfect baby [...]
16 Jun
Dealing with Anger
I watched the movie Juno last night. I probably shouldn’t have.
See, the premise is about a pregnant teen who decides to give up her baby to adoptive parents. The adoptive parents have a marriage in shambles. The prospective dad leaves, the mom adopts the baby and all is well–except for the part which showed how [...]
7 May
It Serves me right…
I was gone for so long, and it serves me right that nobody’s commented on the last post. Even though it’s the best song in FOREVER.
So I was just chatting with my young blog-friend and I told her I was hiding out from blogging right now because I am in a holding pattern in my [...]
5 May
So Many Ways….
This is my new theme song… Time In Between, by Francesca Battistelli.
Clicky the link, and listen. It’s beautiful. The second verse says
Don’t take much for this crazy world
To rob me of my peace
And the enemy of my soul
Says You’re holding out on me
So I stand here lifting empty hands
For you to fill me up again
The first [...]
16 Mar
At Long Last
I have three things before I sign off and go to bed:
We have been here a week. I am not 100% positive, but I could have sworn I heard gunfire tonight. Or else a car backfiring 6 times right in a row. So prayers please!
Then, two things I knew for certain on March 10. (I do [...]
9 Feb
Out of My Home
I just finished packing 8 boxes of Stormy’s things. I feel like the worst person alive, but this had to happen. She’s out and not welcome back.
The school called and said if we thought she was High, they would not deal with her. So we called her social worker and said since the state is [...]
28 Jan
All Because of Jesus I’m Alive
On the eve of my 36th birthday, I know that I am alive in my heart and soul because of Jesus.
Check it out:
Things are a bit better tonight. Rob made contact with someone at the DHS office and they are “working” on having Stormy removed. I think it may take 2-3 [...]
27 Jan
Ten Things I Know
Ten Things I know to be true:
God loves me.
Jesus died so I may live.
My sins are forgiven.
Rob is an amazing husband.
I love Rob.
My parents are and always have been amazing.
I did my best with Stormy.
I love Mindy more than I could ever express.
Stormy really is a good kid. She doesn’t choose to show that right [...]
23 Jan
You Ought to Know…
Just wanted someone to know:
I feel like a failure, putting in notice to get rid of Miss Stormy. I wanted to do it all right, and I couldn’t.
Stormy doesn’t know yet. I guess partly because I am not certain that it’s the right decision. Last week was Hell… but this week has been good.
I hate [...]
