Beautiful Ordinary Life

I am getting better from being sick this week. I didn’t want to get up and go to the clergy/spouse brunch this morning… at all. But I did because we are new here and the Superintendent is new and some of our friends were going as well.
I awoke early because I [...]

This is a Call Out

 
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Place: Living Room in the Big City
Mood: Angrier at Office Word than anything, but searching and a little blue
 
Dear Father God,
Why is everything so hard sometimes?  Why does it seem like “everyone else” has an easier time in life than I do? My heart is crying out. Come [...]

God is So Big – I am so small

I had an epiphany this week, and I was amazed when I stopped to think about it.
So often when I pray about my infertility, I ask God for every little thing that I want. A healthy baby, healthy me, healthy Rob, living together in God’s love and harmony, and us raising our healthy, smart, perfect baby [...]

One Year Later…

It was one year ago last Saturday that Rob and I first laid eyes on our church here in the Big City. I can hardly believe that one year ago I was writing in my journal from my picnic table in my front yard, underneath a tree, with no houses in sight. I don’t know if [...]

Romans 13:14

I have made it no secret here on my blog that I haven’t been a REAL Christian for all that long, not yet 5  years. In that time, I have opened my eyes to the horrible life I lead before, and have done a complete turn-around. Praise God. PRAISE GOD!
I used to be so sad, [...]

I Don’t Know What

I have been away for a long time, from my blog, from my thoughts. I am afraid that I have purposefully distanced myself from knowing my own heart, for fear that I would run back to things and a life much more familiar.
I went to the doctor this morning, having had much abdominal pain. Before [...]

Dealing with Anger

I watched the movie Juno last night. I probably shouldn’t have.
See, the premise is about a pregnant teen who decides to give up her baby to adoptive parents. The adoptive parents have a marriage in shambles. The prospective dad leaves, the mom adopts the baby and all is well–except for the part which showed how [...]

Rose Colored Glasses

This song, Rose Colored Glasses, is one I remember from early childhood. It’s by John Conlee.
“These rose colored glasses that I’m looking through
show only the beauty and hide all the truth.”
I got my little heart broken today. Or yesterday, maybe both.
I guess I have one question to ask. Just one.
I won’t judge you if you [...]

VACATION!!!!! YEAH!

Just got home last night. I wrote this yesterday.
 
The best thing I can think of about this vacation is actually more than one thing.
The food. Garrett has cooked for us nonstop since we arrived. He’s not gourmet, but man is he ever close. WOW! Melon and chocolate the first night. Eggs, ham, cheese and potato [...]

Mindy Graduating Today

For the longest time, I never believed I would be typing that headline, “Mindy Graduating Today.” Sure I have faith that God can do amazing things. I HAVE PROOF of that, just look at my last post! But with my dear niece, I just was never sure.

Mindy and her boyfriend “live together” if you can [...]

Blown Completely Away

Rob wrote this to me while he was away this weekend. I was blown away and I want to be a better wife because of the same reasons.
Saturday, May 16, 2009 3:20 PM
Dearest Jay,
I am reminded, as I have been apart from you for some 77 hours, that I can be fine when I am [...]

The Prodigal Pup

OK so Rob was supposed to leave at 7 this morning for a Pastor’s Conference about 2 hours away. Here it is, nearly 10 AM and he’s still not gone. WHY?
Because of this:
We are thanking God this morning that Tutanka was found only 45 minutes after he left home — with his hobo stick. He [...]

What a Difference a Day Makes

… or two or three days, even.
I am sitting here now somewhat in awe of the crabbiness and nastiness I showed here on my blog last week. So in honor of God leading me by the hand out of that pit once more, I shall speak of my blessings today!

I don’t remember if I mentioned [...]

The Best Problems

I am in the middle of having a really good problem. I can’t think of too many problems which are good, but this one is, my friends.
There’s not enough room in my car to pick up all the kids who want to come to Sunday School. There are 5 who live all together in the [...]